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Lulzcanthelpthatimawkward by blazewind95
Lulzcanthelpthatimawkward
separate version of this because I like how it looked and will be my new id
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Hehenope by blazewind95
Hehenope
le page two and they really weren't the bad kind of creepy or crazy just a tad too much for me to handle (lots of dark stuff) but one quote in particular caught my attention "I'm not crazy my realities just different from yours" now I'm pretty sure that was cheshire from alice but the image used just creeped me out among other things but still left me thinking. oh well humans are a challenge enough for me to understand anyways. i suppose it's just one less painful detachment i'll have to suffer from (i'm not always like that but I can be the cold distant type iCray)

again Somnus (c) :iconblazewind95: no steal cuz stuff happens to bad people (i think...)
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Yeahishouldntikno by blazewind95
Yeahishouldntikno
uploading by panel on here cuz who knows when I'll actually feel like oranizing it into le full comic i had planned

anyways i actually did do this but only out of late night curiosity and i wanted to know what i'd be getting into roleplaying with this person (I avidly avoid people I find to be super creepy or having potential of being a danger and call me paranoid if you want but i rarely sleep as is why add another reason ^^; )

Somnus is mine to torture alone because why not abuse your art self hahakillmeplz

no stealing if u like keeping ur fingers attached (I've been in this kind of crazy mood all day so try me ^^ waitsforthewaveofunwatches)
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Go ahead and hurt me... by blazewind95
Go ahead and hurt me...
...I like it

lol yeah the result of Insomnia deciding to keep me up but whatever we're cool Neko-Emoji-01 [V1]  anyhow I've still been in pain off and on and it has moved from my aching shoulder to my chest. It's kind of like being stabbed but with no knife, but I may be over-exaggerating a tad (just a tad) Llama Emoji-66 (Orly) [V3]  I figured if pain's gonna torture me I may as well make it fun right...yeah my sleepless brain is still thinking odd things Lovely Shoujo Emoji (Whew Sigh) [V3] 

Somnus is my precious Llama Emoji-56 (Hiding) [V3]   

Please do not steal my art I'll find you and make you regret it (jk, not really, maybe)Neko Emoji-40 (Ok Okey) [V2] 

Edit/Update: I can't make up my mind whether this should have a content filter because blood and whatever theme this could even possibly have so if you prefer that I do tell me...it's actually the first time I think I've even posted something like this to begin with so yeah advice or suggestions would be grrreatKao Emoji-77 (Errr) [V4] 
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Le sigh make it stop by blazewind95
Le sigh make it stop
been sore all day and thru my pain and restlessness made this lazy sketch and just as lazily colored

Somnus (le new name for my persona) (c) :iconblazewind95:

WIP or screencap of progress/layers here sta.sh/0zx0k6kog8w
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Lately I've been having many a restless night wondering and worrying about friends and things of that nature as well as my own emotions which had nearly begun to get the better of me as my mind began to wander to places it shouldn't negative thoughts, ideas of suicide and others which I wont get into too much detail about.

I'd begun to feel like a failure, assuming I'd let down friends, family and even more my own self. To think that I'd let myself fall so far and come close to rock bottom all because I let my burdensome emotions get the better of me. I admit I'd come close to trying the things that had come to mind spending hours brooding and pondering what to do and how to do it. Then I'd heard from someone who needed just a bit more help than I did but seen was beginning to think I had failed them.

It wasn't until tonight when one in particular had come across a situation that brought them close to their own breaking point and those things that I had thought of doing, considering things I should have never let cross my mind had come to wear on their own. So I did what I think any person would or I would hope and think should and talked to them. And we did. and talked, and talked and talked. and finally a resolve. Healing. Bonding. Coping with pain. Reminding on another how things get better even when it's hard.

I feel like many people likely go through its but their decisions sometimes have grater consequences than those of others. Today and for awhile I'd led myself to believe I couldn't do anything for anyone and that I was utterly useless. Then today happened and tonight happened and I managed to help bring them out of their dark place and in doing so found my out out of mine.

I know I likely sound like a fortune cookie or a novella one but I realize everyone goes through pain...it's a part of life and is something we all deal with it something we've all encountered...and even though it hurts we have to learn not to let it dominate and overpower us. It may be our choice as to whether we want to move on or not but I'm definitely coming to realize how much easier it is to hold on to it and how it's just a easy (though not always so much) how we should take that pain, accept it, and soon begin to move on from our pain and heal and keep living.

One final note in what I've learned is that life goes on no matter what happens but it's our choice whether we plan to move on with it.

(Man that was long) but until next time I hope all of you have a good night/good morning and an even better life~

3/13/15 3am
  • Mood: Caring
  • Listening to: Durarara!! OST

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blazewind95

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My names blazewind95 but you can call me Insomniac (or Somnus if you'd prefer)
I'm a sleepless artist that loves to draw, my tools of the trade are my Wacom Intuos Pro and Clip Studio Paint and pencil and paper if I feel like it.
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ShadowyChica Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the watch! 
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blazewind95 Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Not a problem Emoji02 Your art's cool! Emoji03 
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Shad0wStarr Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch!! :iconkonataplz:
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blazewind95 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome Ene (Smile) [V7] 
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Kallikonee Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks for the watch !
it means a lot to meYuuki Bowing Icon 
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blazewind95 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Not a problem besides I really like your art and your coloring style especially Panda Emoji-28 (Hello Hi) [V2] 
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Kallikonee Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you !!!
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blazewind95 Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! Yato (At your service) [V1] 
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CadeTheHedgehog Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2015  Student Digital Artist
It's been awhile Blaze.. how are ya?
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blazewind95 Featured By Owner Edited Jan 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I certainly has and I'm doing well :D Just started a new comic recently on Tapastic ;)

How are you?
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